in case of fire

so teddy rawr and i finally came to a decision to move somewhere close to my mom's. and it's seemed to be God's will because there's a house just across mom's which is going to be for rent this coming june. i find it hard to be all by myself most of the time especially now that i'm giving birth and i can't imagine life with just baby and i. i think every woman needs to be with someone other than their husbands after giving birth, like their mothers or cousins, or maybe relatives. i wouldn't know what to do when something unexpected happens to my baby and i might freak out. freak out. who wouldn't freak out when you're all by yourself at home and your neighbors do not seem to care? it's just like when the fire alarm went on and on in this building and FINALLY i was able to see my neighbors out their doors but take note, nobody's talking to each other. they were holding their cellphones and just observing, like waiting for someone who's going to scream "FIRE!" before they come back inside to pack their things and run. i kept asking, "what's happening? where is it coming from?" and nobody answered. was it just a fire drill? i don't know. another thing that i don't like about this specific building is how far it is from the road. not far-faaar. it's just that fire trucks won't be able to come close so they would need lots of fire hose adapter to be able to reach and kill the source. oh well, that's just me. i really don't know if they have a shortcut where firemen and their gears can go through to enter the premises. i can see sprinklers all around the house, not sure if they are working. i wish they wouldn't test them now because my stomach's out, i might freak out and my neighbors are minding their own business.

bad mother

there was this viral video on FB that i got curious of because it enraged my youngest sister. i've only seen the first minute of it and couldn't stand to see more. i was already weeping when i saw this woman hitting the helpless baby with a pillow. and the baby kept crying and crying... does the woman know that this baby did not choose to be in this world with her? if only she can runaway... but her arms and legs aren't strong enough yet.

i'm hoping that the angels were protecting her that time. that the baby wasn't feeling anything that hurts with every hit and pinch from this cruel woman. that she will not carry the memory of that traumatic experience with her while she grows up.

nobody has the right to do that kind of thing especially to a helpless baby. i'm so heart broken.

shiny car

my sister's suv is still not in good shape since they went here to visit my crib. it's bad news because they are supposed to spend the summer at mom's and they can't go without a car because of the many things they have to bring along for my nephew. i heard some parts need to be replaced and they checked out online auto parts already but still, it may take another week or two to get things done. oh well. i guess we must wait. been wishing for my own ride for quite a long time already. i wonder why it isn't here yet. hmm... elders say that everything that you think you need will be accessible to you when the time comes that you REALLY need it. having to carry a baby everywhere without our own ride would be a pain. so i guess the need is coming very soon. hello shiny car!

what will he be?

i'm excited to get to know my baby. i know that he was given a unique personality and i can only imagine what his dreams would be made of. will he be a doctor? a politician? will he be a music lover or a rockstar? will he prefer wearing the tailored sportsman over adidas basketball wear? will he be more like his mom or his dad? whoever he is, surely he will be loved. i feel so privileged to be chosen as the mother who will take care of him. i'd like to think that God sees me fit or the perfect woman to nurture this baby as he discovers his life purpose. i don't know if there's such a thing as getting ready to be a mother or a parent. i guess you just become one all of a sudden. and this thought excites me as the days go by. the big day fast approaching...

29 weeks and counting

time flies indeed. i was 5 weeks yesterday and now i'm 29 weeks. i feel so heavy and irritable because of the pain all over. my feet couldn't keep up with my weight too and it has grown half and inch again, i think. this pregnancy has changed me a lot and maybe when i am already calmed down and have enough time for breathing, i'll blog about it. for now, i need to think about my son's future and get some rest.

jewelry box

a personalized jewelry box with dancing ballerina... that's one of the most beautiful things i'd ever laid my eyes on when i was young and saw it in my cousins vanity table. i actually didn't care about her fancy necklaces, earrings and bracelets. it's the box that caught my attention so much and i ended up even dreaming about it. of course my mother then couldn't understand why i wanted that - i didn't have that much jewelry as a child. but it seems to me that it's every little girl's dream. so when i got older and had god daughters, i made sure to get them that kind of present and boy, was i right. i instantly became their favorite godparent. what i actually bought were not personalized but i'm thinking of getting them that next christmas when they're all grown up. if my baby was a girl too, i'm sure this room would be filled with such cute things. since it's a boy, i guess it would be filled with soldier toys and cars. oh well, i can play with those too :)

boys and bikes

lots of boys in my workplace are into biking now. good for them, for finding something else to do besides the strenuous work in the office. i see them flash their shoei helmets with each other and their shiny big bikes too. it's a thrilling sport whenever i think about it because i have memories of my brothers being into that as well and the "unfortunate" events that risked their lives. but it's a cool vehicle knowing that it can take you anywhere you'd like to go, no matter the status of the traffic and if you're adventurous enough, no matter what the weather is. some of my friends joined those biking groups and you'll be entertained by the stories of their encounters with both nature and people. now i miss my mountaineering days...

bring back the studio

it's one of my dreams to setup my own studio with complete musical instruments and gadgets for editing/recording. i guess some things don't change that fast even if too many experiences have piled up and keep driving you away. in a few months time, who knows, after a give birth to my first rockstar, my brother would re-establish his old studio. if i could handle being a mother or learn how to be one easily, then i might do some recording on the side. bro also wants to earn money by having his instruments rented out. this Phonic PA system is simply amazing and i would definitely have him take a look at it to replace the old system. the school nearby, church and even some households might rent us out whether it be big or small events. i'm excited! hoping that baby rockstar would enjoy it too :)

nurses in my workplace

when i was young, i wanted to be a nurse simply because i found nursing uniforms very pretty. my cousins are in the medical field and most of the times that i see them, they are wearing all whites. my sister almost finished nursing too but i guess her mission is somewhere else so God took her to a different direction. in my workplace now, i'm always surprised that there are registered nurses who decided to stay with the company other than practice their profession. it's hard to forget what one of our trainers said about finishing college and careers: "when you finish a course, it doesn't mean you're stuck there. it just means that you have the capability to finish it. now it's up to you where you want to go or what you want to do. you always have a choice."

motorcycle stories

during the weekend, my siblings and i got to talk about the past when my brother met an accident involving a big bike that is not his own. he had a really big, scary wound on his knees and he actually went home bleeding. thank God the xray showed that everything's ok with the bones and we just have to deal with the open wound that needed stitches (ouch). mom said it was real surprise since my dad's birthday then was fast approaching and they wanted to celebrate. along came the father of the big bike's owner with broken pieces on his hand that needed to be replaced. and so the money went there, along with some Olympia Motorcycle Gear as an apology gift.